Brettney’s gone blue dabbadeedabbadie lol

hope you like the new look.

Working with someone and then going onto having a relationship whilst in the workplace is a difficult and not too often successful thing. In this circumstance this has been the obvious “See what I mean”. After Sarah split up with me I just found it so hard to be able to speak to her without feeling hurt, rejection, sadness and like a broken soul.

It was a slow process but we are now friends and on speaking terms, it’s not that we had fallen out but the situation was somewhat harder because we work together. I still care deeply for Sarah and maybe one day she has said that we could revisit what we had, because even she knows herself we had something special together and it was more than love, it was friendship, companionship, trust and respect.

Maybe one day I will meet the girl of my dreams, maybe one day Sarah and I may get back together, but what i do know is this, you just have to keep picking yourself up and try again.

Firstly, apologies for the lack of blog entries in a month. Truth is I ran out of ideas for entries until I started a new relationship with a girl I worked beside, you’ll notice I am using past tense, well we had been dating up until last night.

Things were going well, we had gone out on a date, and eventually a lot of nights out socialising ended up in us becoming more than friends. But things became stale and I knew there was something just not right, call it a hunch. She was holding hands less, cuddling less and I knew that this was inevitable. Despite her reassurances that “everything was ok” last night she dumped me claiming that she just couldn’t face doing it because she knew it hurt me.

The worst part of all this is that we still have to work together and I just don’t know that I could face up to this anymore, she meant the world to me and just don’t know if i can speak to her again, not because i ahte her, but because everytime I see her, ill be reminded of what we had and what we lost.

Love is lifes greatest enemy, no sooner do you find someone but she is taken away from you again, everyone just wants to feel love, companionship, that loving and knowing gaze of contentment between two people that care for each other in a special way.

As for Sarah and I, only time could heal broken wounds, I don’t think I have cared as much for someone as much as this since the girlfriend I had at high school which was revisited many years later until she cheated.

Right now, i just feel like i want to fall into a deep sleep never to wake again , perhaps I still haven’t learned my lesson from one of my previous blog entries

http://www.brettmclaughlin.co.uk/2008/08/what-did-we-learn-today/