Firstly, apologies for the lack of blog entries in a month. Truth is I ran out of ideas for entries until I started a new relationship with a girl I worked beside, you’ll notice I am using past tense, well we had been dating up until last night.

Things were going well, we had gone out on a date, and eventually a lot of nights out socialising ended up in us becoming more than friends. But things became stale and I knew there was something just not right, call it a hunch. She was holding hands less, cuddling less and I knew that this was inevitable. Despite her reassurances that “everything was ok” last night she dumped me claiming that she just couldn’t face doing it because she knew it hurt me.

The worst part of all this is that we still have to work together and I just don’t know that I could face up to this anymore, she meant the world to me and just don’t know if i can speak to her again, not because i ahte her, but because everytime I see her, ill be reminded of what we had and what we lost.

Love is lifes greatest enemy, no sooner do you find someone but she is taken away from you again, everyone just wants to feel love, companionship, that loving and knowing gaze of contentment between two people that care for each other in a special way.

As for Sarah and I, only time could heal broken wounds, I don’t think I have cared as much for someone as much as this since the girlfriend I had at high school which was revisited many years later until she cheated.

Right now, i just feel like i want to fall into a deep sleep never to wake again , perhaps I still haven’t learned my lesson from one of my previous blog entries

http://www.brettmclaughlin.co.uk/2008/08/what-did-we-learn-today/

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   If there’s one lesson that is to be learned, it is that you must not mix your personal life with your work life. Whatever your opinion is, she is just the same as any of us, and she deserves to be respected. Don’t let a relationship ruin your job, because we’re in a time where you never know if you’ll be able to get another one.

   And if she starts to get angry at you and give you abuse, just let it be, and ignore that aspect and try to work with her. You know, a manager does not want that sort of thing in the workplace and they’ll easily see it sooner or later and she’ll get the sack and you can go on with your life. If both of you start to argue, you’ll both get the sack; if you start going on about how much she hurt you and focus ore on that than actually doing your work, well, you’ll get fired.

   I know people like you that think that love will fix everything in their lives, and I guess at your age, it’s a lot harder to deal with. I have friends in their 30’s who don’t have anyone yet and everyone thinks it’s really weird. You just have to learn to just ignore them, it doesn’t matter, they just want to put you down so they look better. In my opinion, you just gotta do it step by step, you’re not a bad person, I’ve seen relationships end so badly to the point the police got involved.

   Hang in there, you have a lot ahead of you, it’ll all happen in the right time and at the right place.

   Comment by Jessica — November 12, 2008 @ 11:28 am

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   thanks that’s really sweet of you, and i appreciate the feed back, look out for a new entry soon with an update on what has been going on.

   Comment by Brettney — November 21, 2008 @ 9:37 am

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